This morning, I felt little confused about my feelings whether I love her very much or not because I am like in the middle of that feelings. She went back to the city in which she has been continuing her study to become a doctor.
I met her again two days ago but I hardly maximize our nuance together because I have to work and study so that I left her alone.
According to me, she is such a smart and beautiful girl that many boys want to get her heart. She is too perfect for me. She is kind but sometimes she gets angry if my bedroom is dirty. She has ever given me an advise when I would pray for Dhuha and the time was almost over. She said that do not pray because the time would be over. In that time, I was feeling she hurt me with those words but I understand now why she warned me because she loves me.
Now, she has gone. She went back to Solo again and I am alone. I feel really lonely but I trust her because she said that she will meet and accompany me again.
Till this time, I still cannot make sure whether she really needs me or not. What I know and I fell is I always miss her so much.
Yogyakarta, May 7, 2019
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