Eventually,
I can find my whole dream completely. It is about continuing my study in master
degree. I know that it is so had to be done but I extremely want to achieve that
kind of my wish. Sometimes I feel nobody because I am not such a rich person
that I can buy anything what I want and I really need. I have to try or attempt
my extra effort. My close friend ever says to me that I cannot attain my dream
for sure because I was born in poor family. Wondering his thoughts about my future
I realize that I am only ordinary person and there is none in my big family who
can continue his study. So it is impossible for me to continue my study. My
sadness increases due to myself. Sometimes I do not accept who I am because of
my disabilities. As people around me know that I am not handsome. Moreover My
face is older than my age. Probably these reasons make new people think twice
to meet and recognize me completely.
Although
my friends only utilize me because I include as a smart person. They always ask
me to help them for finishing their assignments or task but after finishing they
leave me alone in empty space. I am not arrogant but I know completely about myself.
I always endeavor to study in all my spare time so that perhaps I become smart
person. It is different what have happened in my life. I always feel alone and
lonely in this wide world. Honestly, I just endeavor and try in every things
that I get in my life. I want to maximize all things that I have and I want to
get all things that I have not got in my life hitherto. There is none who knows
a little about my self. Only me and God who know and understand regarding me totality.
When new people meet me, for sure, they will humiliate me because of my
performance and my attitude. They will think that I am girlish. After they
recognize me, for sure, they will honor me. I do not know why. It just happens
in my life.
My
name is Irfan. Irfan originate from Arabic. It means knowledge. So I decide to
be brave in this hard life. I have to survive. I do not surrender or give up.
If I surrender of course they, who always humiliate me, will laugh loudly and steadily.
I do not want it happens. I have to have enthusiasm. Keep spirit, Move on and
go ahead, that is me right now and forevermore.
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